Wednesday, November 13, 2013

How to live : The Savior and Righteousness

It's a silly thing to think we have any control over anything but ourselves.

I want to talk a little bit about the Heavenly Father and the Savior. Believe me when I say it is the Father that we turn to for comfort. I hope we remember that. Heavenly Father is the one that deserves our undivided attention, with reverence and admiration to our Savior Jesus who is the advocate to the Father.

I love the Lord God. I know He's there. I know He has the plan of my life laid out. I do stray from it. But I try my hardest to live and walk that line. I know that eternity works in a way that God is constantly aware of our state. I know in the silent moments when we are by ourselves He is there. When we are down He is especially there. Surely the enabling power of the Atonement is there.

When we are kicked to the ground. There is a scripture I like to think of. It's one of my favorites.

And the world, because of their iniquity, shall judge him to be a thing of naught; wherefore they scourge him, and he suffereth it; and they smite him, and he suffereth it. Yea, they aspit upon him, and he suffereth it, because of his loving bkindness and his clong-suffering towards the children of men. 1 Nephi 19:6

I sometimes put that in my situation and add to it because the Lord knows how everyone feels. They break his heart and he suffereth it, they forget about him and he suffereth it, they don't acknowledge him and he suffereth it, they say they'll do something and they don't and he suffereth it, they make him feel left out and he suffereth it. 

The Lord knows everything and feels everything. 

I love that scripture because it helps me remember that He suffered all and did it for me and all my pains. My hope is that it will bring you the same comfort.


Righteousness is the sole way to live life. There is never happiness in doing things opposite to light. What I have noticed in my life is those things that tempt us to do wrong, use our bodies in ways that our not congruent with how God intended our bodies to be used. Drugs, Coffee, Pornography all misuse the body, even to the point to be addicted. It's interesting to me that righteousness allows the body to be free and work seamlessly with life, hence truly making us free.

Enough with biology. Have you felt the Spirit? It's real and the point to this whole thing. The conduit by which Heavenly Father reveals things to us is the Spirit. He is temperamental...well stingy...well stingy...He doesn't stand up for things He will be #gone before you can realize it. 

You never know what you have til its gone. 

A lesson I have learned all too frequently. It also, to me, reminds me of the several times that I have felt the Spirit with me and then felt Him depart when I decide to be a **moronic. 

Anyway. I have several times in my life literally felt the good Spirit that I had built up, drain from me. Which was bad. But to have the Spirit back was great. Regain the Spirits embrace and be worthy for it was nothing short of great. It's like the color was back into the world. You can still operate without the gift of the Holy Ghost, but why would you want that? 

I think I've said my piece. Righteous is key on how to live. I should be doing homework. But I just needed to take a break and let my thought flow. 

**FUNNYYY --- Haven't done one of these in a while. Probably ruins the spirit of this post, ironic? Anyway, me and my brother use to use adverbs/adjectives as nouns. I loved it. Still do it. Still funny to me...Think about it. You are a big stink. Even verbs as nouns is hilarious. Stop being a dang turd flick. That was one of my favorites. Ya dern butt slap. Most of them had to do with poop and butts...we were boys. We thought it was funny. Get off me about it. Ya rude. Gotta do the emphasis right...hit me up about it sometime. ----

Saturday, November 9, 2013

How to live? 1st thought at an answer.

Sometimes we have to be vulnerable. I don't like it. Some people hold their cards close to their chest and I don’t feel that's the way to do things. 

I could be wrong. Maybe holding things close to the chest isn't all that bad. There is something to be said about that. Not sure what, protection maybe? Strength? Definitely. Different blog, different day. 

Some of my most precious memories come from showing unrestricted emotions towards a person. Actions and words use to combine into something. I can get behind that. Since I've been home from my mission communication between my parents and sibling has strengthened greatly as I have learned to be open and make sure that I tell them I love them verbally. It carries with it a power beyond what I know. My mission taught me that and I will continue that throughout my life. 

If I love you, I'll tell you. 

Being slow to act is mostly the best to me. Some things require quick, immediate attention, but I have found that most matters can be well taken care of without quick blasts. 

We all have time. Plenty of it to take care of things.  

But on the inverse. 

I just put myself out there it's probably why I get stomped on sometimes. I mean. I look at myself and I'm like well shoot jake all your thoughts are on the chopping block. And I don't really realize that's what I'm doing. I'm just going on pure emotion. I just say it because I want my heart cleared. I don't realize that by doing that my heart is out there to be destroyed, which it has been as I awkwardly tilt, twirl and stumble through this thing called life. 

All the while never noticing I put myself in that position. You roll the dice you pay the price. Just this isn't a gamble with money. 

It's something more real.

I just look back at my position and think "man, this sucks and I just keep putting myself out there". I mean. Maybe there is vulnerability and just straight stupidity. 

But in my head I just think "no, just keep giving ang giving and get more and more trampled" til I'm like "okayyyyy i give up". 

That's how I deal with life. Everyone this is me taking a bow. You've been a great audience. 

A great friend said to me, “Could it get any worse? You've probably hit the bottom by now." Nice... 

I'm the type of person that was the child that burnt his hand on the stove. Parents told me don't do that again, that burns huh? But I'm like, no. I'm going to keep touching that burner until it knows exactly how I feel! Getting burned everytime, further deepening the burnt tissue. 

That's nice imagery. Thats how I deal with life. To this point it has been okay. 

I mean, I don’t have any stress fractures or blood clots.

Separate thought. I think sometimes we just look for stuff to hate in people. I’m even bad at this, without even knowing. The other day I thought, “What if my children like such and such a thing? Will I be mad at them? Would I hate my own kids for enjoying something I don’t feel attached to?” 

Maybe that’s too harsh of an example, but I don’t think so. In the deep parts of our mind maybe in order to keep ourselves straight we should have some worse case scenarios. 

I also wonder what is the phenomena that hangs over a person to pull the unwanted, probably unmerited thoughts of others.

It’s something I’m working on. 

I never know what has acted on people to make them the way that they are. That’s one thing I’ve learned in my….recent years….I was going to old age……but like well yeah

I think a lot of things would be settled if we just look at the future. Burning bridges and wot not.

Because underneath it all, I like to believe that we are all reasonable people. 

Sunday, November 3, 2013

(2posts) I came in like a wrecking ball...

I'm sorry about the title for sure...

***Random thought. Still hung up on people thinking I'm marriage hungry...People think I am (which is wrong), but what about the people who let it consume them to the point they don't function. What a strange world we live in. Random thought completed.***

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I just want to take the time to talk about how beautiful ya'll girls are.

I know, this isn't exactly my blogs normal dialogue, but I just want to say how true it is.

I have been priviledged to know some girls as of late, who I have literally stopped and thought, "Shoot."

I pondered on this later. I mean, some girls get down on themselves for one reason or another, but in my honest opinion there is no need. I know beauty is only skin deep, but each of these girls have great, genuine personalities.

I know girls sometimes think that they may not be as pretty as the next girl or whatever. Society is wrong. Comparisons are no good because we are talking about a matter of opinions and they vary so much from person to person that they are simply incomparable and not worthy of our dwelling thoughts.

----2nd Post

I have spent a lot of time thinking about what I think about and how much I time I spend thinking about the things I think about. In no particular order.

I think about design a lot. I think about girls a lot. I think about how to be a better a lot. I spend a lot of time wondering what the heck I'm doing with my life. I spend a lot of time thinking about funny things. I spend a lot of time thinking about other people in general. I spend a lot of time thinking about God. I spend a lot of time thinking about the Atonement and repentance.

I spend some time thinking about fear. I spend some time thinking about my class. I spend some time thinking about how much time I have left at BYU, in the 105, in Provo, with my friends. I spend a lot of time thinking about things I just need to stop doing. I spend some time everyday thinking about my family and how I miss them and miss seeing them.

At least two of three times a day I think about my parents and how great they are. I just spend about 5 minutes thinking about them and nothing else. It happens everyday. Seriously though.

The question was posed to me, "How can we have the Spirit of God in our lives more?"

My answer simply was to read the scriptures. Thinking about that I realized the more time we spend doing something the more time we spend thinking about it and pondering about it. If we spend time at the Temple, spend time in the scriptures, spend time with good company, then the subject of our thoughts becomes things of the Kingdom of God.

I know a very logical flow, but I feel its got merit.

Back in the day I determined that there are certain things we do that give Satan fire power. If we view images and media that is not appropriate that give Satan fire power. He can bring up those images when he chooses. When we listen to inappropriate music on the regs, he can pull that back up at a moments notice. Before you know it you got Dr. Dre's Millennium album blasting in your mind. No bueno.

However, if you listen to and see wholesome images and media that gives the Spirit firepower from which He can use to overpower evil thoughts that Satan tries to use to harm us.

It's a formula for success. I've seen it work in my life. I know its real. It's the reason I think a 2 year mission is so great, because eventually after enough time of thinking about the Lord and the teachings of the Prophets, it becomes all you think about and a permanent spot in your thoughts.

Think about that.

----Random thoughts that I have----
If only I could count the times, in three years, I have walked sidewalk at my apartment complex from one side of the complex to the other, totally frustrated with life, looking up at the the cold...exhaling deeply and thinking..."crap"...